At some point along the way, I had to ask myself what I wanted to do with my life. Otherwise, I would only drift into inauthentic decisions, ending up in a life I didn’t want.
But this question was surprisingly difficult for me to answer. I really didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life, because I didn’t know who I was. I didn’t know what my favorite things were or what I was passionate about.
Sure, there were fun things to do and there were also noble life missions. But when it came down to the facts, there was nothing I wanted to devote my life to achieving. Some people love to travel, some like to cuddle with a loved one, some want to make money, become famous, or make a better world…. But the usual life dreams weren’t doing anything for me – except evoke a big yawn.
Eventually I realized there was really no life goal, ambition, or material attainment – for anyone. Those ideas are illusory. They can also be distractions from authentically or simply being yourself, which turns out to be the most fulfilling achievement of all. Still, I wondered, what am I supposed to do with my life every day?
The answer became clear after I finally let go of the question. The answer is NOTHING. There’s a wise saying that goes like this:
There’s nothing to do, there’s nowhere to go, there’s nothing to attain.
Once that factor is fully accepted and realized, something interesting happens. Each “empty” moment in life comes alive. In every moment, there’s something real, empowering, or beautiful to experience, if we can surrender enough to see it. That dynamic, inexplicable experience is just right for the moment which is always unique.
When we let go of trying to control life – as if that was even possible – we discover our soul which is life itself. When we let go of trying to live out some purpose or create our best life, our best life just happens, no matter where we are or what we’re doing. That’s how we get to know ourself – by experiencing ourself.